Once a year, that day comes when you feel like the world owes you a little knick or knack or a greeting at the very least. On this seemingly “special” day, a part of us feels that we deserve the excess attention and overflowing greetings, and that we have every right or reason to be treated and to act differently.
And when thought to be taking advantage of this day and privilege, we often quip,“Hey, it’s MY birthday!”
Well, that day comes for me once again. That day which seems much more special in anticipation than on the day itself. That day when most (if not all) are secretly filled with an overwhelming sense of sadness and disappointment. That day of dread when one is haunted by the thought of growing older and yet “not-so-wiser”.
Thus, on this day and at this moment, let me attempt to turn things around. Because the world has given me 22 amazing years (+ 1 at 12 o’clock) , the least I can do is give and greet back.
Today I owe the world and all of you a big THANK YOU!
I thank each and everyone of you for coming into my life and being part of it somehow. I thank you for teaching me things I would not have known had I not met you. I thank you for being part of my life, its moments, its ups and downs, its joys and pains. I thank you for being part of every chapter, chunk or crevice. I thank even those who have hurt me (whether intentional or otherwise) because at the end of the road, those pains given me beautiful scars to learn from.
Conversely, I would like to apologize to those I have hurt or offended. Deep in my heart and deep in yours, you know who you are. Whatever the circumstance or the situation that stands today, I hope I still get the chance to say these things in person and to apologize for whatever pain that I caused you. From my deepest core, I would like to say sorry. I hope you find it in your heart to forgive me.
While I am no believer in regrets or looking back, I do admit to moments when I think that had I dealt with those situations differently, it might have made a difference.
Thus, on this special and yet not-so-special day, I give you my warmest THANK YOU and sincerest SORRY. Here’s to hoping you accept both, with open minds and hearts, and to hoping you indulge me this one time.
After all, it is MY birthday. 😛